running out of

Time.

too many things i want to do, but too little time for me to do them. weekdays are like this: wake 630am, work 8am, home 6pm, dinner, sleep. there’s very little time in btw dinner and sleep to do something, maybe squeeze in a show or play with baby a little and thats about it. weekends are a blessing but they pass in a blur. and it’s monday again. over and over, the same routine, the same amount of fatigue. and this, is just a simplified summary of it all.

i want to exercise. get swimming, running, whatever. i want to do some decent shopping, some retail therapy like i used to do. i want to start on a personal project, be it painting or designing a website. i want to chill at a nice bar/cafe with friends and tcss. i want to go on a holiday and be able to indulge in some vices “un-guiltily”. i want to go to the library and borrow a nice novel to read on lazy wkend afternoons. i want….

too many things. too little time.

but as a friend says, c’est la vie.

bummer,
fifi

life,

is short. recently got a dreadful and shocking news that my uncle (maternal side) passed away suddenly. reason? he drank alot and went home to sleep and never woke up again. that was quoted directly from my mom, true or not, no one really knows until the official autopsy is out, i guess. my uncle, as endearingly known as “uncle 5″, by all of us, is gone. just like that. it really came as a shock because it is just so unexpected, so sudden and so unbelievable. i remember i just saw him at a cousin’s birthday party only less than a month ago, laughing and talking jovially as usual, and now, he’s gone.

he left behind a wife and 2 sons (my cousins). there’s a part of me that feels worried for their family, because their mom has always been a housewife, and they are only 13 and 17, young kids. what is gonna happen to them? my uncle was a cab driver. cab drivers really don’t earn as much as bankers. and moreover, there’s no cpf contribution at all. how about their education? their flat? their lives????

it is Really worrying. my brother was telling me at the wake, the wife had been crying so hard since she found out til night and the 2 sons look very lost, forlorn and sad. a dad and a husband gone. it is very depressing. i cant imagine the intense sadness they are feeling now and how bleak everything will seem to be.

death, has always been a difficult thing to deal with. especially when the person is very dear to you. i hope they will be strong and strive hard to lead a happy and fulfilling life, although it’ll be very hard to do, i hope they will make it through this dark period.

life, is short.

stay happy.

if you are not, find the root of your unhappiness and yank it off.

find things that make you happy.

only you can make it happen.

no one else is gonna do that for you.

life is all about finding the happy in things you do.

stuck in a dreadful job?

QUIT & GET A BETTER ONE.

stuck in a dreadful situation?

GET OUT OF IT FAST.

stuck with toxic people you hate?

LEAVE THEM. (since you cant kill them anyway)

stuck with a boring routine in life?

CHANGE IT. DO SOMETHING NEW.

i can go on and on but you get the gist. do something to your life, make it better, make it more enjoyable and most importantly, make it HAPPIER.

there’s a reason why we always say this when someone asks what do you wish for your loved ones:

“To Be Happy.”

Happiness is ultimately the crux of life.

starting the elimination of unhappiness-es in life,
fifi

RIP uncle 5.

Gorgeous evian designs

by JPG

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impressed,

fifi

change

i used to see this tag somewhere, but i don’t remember where exactly now: “The only thing constant in man is change.” and yeah, i thought, that is really true. in life, we go through many changes, be it family, career, oneself or people around you. these changes can be good or bad, but there’s nothing we can do to prevent them from happening. good changes, we rejoice; bad changes, we fret.

change is good in a way such that it trains you to force yourself to adapt to certain situations, be it learning to get along with someone you don’t like, or doing something else a whole new way, or getting used to a new environment. in a way, if you adapt successfully and overcome the bad, you emerge to become a more flexible and open person. that is the good part of it. but of course, things are always easier said than done. it is not easy to force yourself to really “like” an individual but it’s easy to maintain a level of courtesy to him/her. it ain’t easy to change your working habits to fit into another one, but it’s easy to pretend you enjoy doing it the new way. it isn’t easy to be plonked into a new environment especially when you are not ready, but it is easy to find ways to escape away from it, though at the end of the day, it will still be there waiting for you to return to it.

for instance, say you are a writer whose way of writing is to write whenever ideas come into your head, and then edit everything at the end. and your works have always turned out fine and ready to be published. that’s your working style. but a new editor-in-chief is hired, and he comes and tells you i want to see proper planning and mapping out of your ideas before you even start to write. by forcing you to change the way you work, which has always worked perfectly fine for you and the rest of the world, the editor-in-chief is CRAMPING YOUR STYLE. and then you become unhappy because you have to change something that has always worked for you. and your unhappiness reduces your work productivity.

Or it could be that the EDC is an annoying prick who is constantly Stepping On Your Tail and irritating you. sure, he/she might be a nice person in general, BUT there are always people whom you just cannot get along with, and try as you wish to really Like them as an individual, you CAN’T. not that you never tried, but you just CAN’T. they are from another world, another frequency, another wavelength, like parallel lines that could never meet……etc etc etc. i can come up with a million analogies, but let’s not waste the time doing that.

well, it’s just one of the many possibilities that could result from change. and that is one example. but of course, we do not forget that change could be good too. a change to your lifestyle could be good, for example. for someone who doesn’t exercise, picking up a new sport would definitely bring about better health and time better spent to him/her. all in all, it’s just that at the end of the day, you have to weigh the pros and cons that change has given you. if it’s more towards the pro side, then you should hold on and try to make the best out of it. if it weighs heavier on the con side, then it is probably not worth hanging on to it. tell yourself, life is short. spending any part of your life feeling miserable and angry isn’t going to help one bit, and isn’t worth it at all, so just screw it and work towards pursuing the happy in life.

pursuing the happy,
fifi

pretty vodka packaging

i like the one on the right.

picture of the day

Chubber says a little prayer.

xoxo,
fifi

bald is the new black

just brought little scarlett for a shave last week, pics and a short clip of her getting GI-Janed is over at http://mamaandpapa.wordpress.com!

xoxo,
mama fifi